Looking....

When I feel miserable about life and myself, I have an inclination to look elsewhere for inspiration. Many of you out there might be thinking, "But Mims, you should be lookin in yourself for inspiration." But you know, I'm tired of looking inside and not finding any answers. What I do find is a hole that I dug for myself where I like to hide and sadness and regret. I don't know what my heart is saying anymore sometimes. My heart feels so torn sometimes, yet I wonder if it's really torn or if I just have to pay attention to it.