I was at work today and I was in a better mood today than I usually am. Usually when I walk in to work I usually really want to run right back out. I used to look forward to going to work (I looked forward to it all my life!). When I was little, I used to daydream about the day when I would be all grown up and be a confident woman out in the work force and making a name for myself! I don't think that I am close to being the image of the me that I wanted to become.
I have spoken to a bunch of other people who feel the same way. What I keep wondering then, is what happens along the way of childhood and adolescence that causes a detour in who we "are supposed" to become?
The lack of responsibility may be one reason. As a teenager, you never really understand how overwhelming or difficult it can get when you start taking care of yourself, or others(kids) and your finances. Your way of thinking completely changes from what am I going to wear today, to how am I going to pay for next month's bills? I know that gets in the way for me and diminishes confidence. You lose your focus sometimes and things just don't end up the way you would like them to be. I always want to turn right back around when I get to work. Once you get into the habit of taking care of "business" maybe that can change one's attitude. It can probably be like, "This sucks right now, but at least I am on my own." More or less lol. Its just a detour for right now babe. You will find your way. :)-Marcella
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